Fingertips of God

Just Beyond the Fingertips of God I ponder. I spend hours pondering, the who's, the why's, the how's, the if's... I am an over ponderer. I have written "ponder" so much in the first sentence it doesn't even look like a real word anymore. I am idiotropic and the antitheses of a sophophobiac. I look inside myself for answers although I am am terrified they are not already there waiting for me. I have had thousands of "ah HA!" moments. I am almost 60.. Everything from, "OMG, nina you look horrible in blue eye shadow!" (what the heck was I thinking then anyway?) to the more subtle ones with deeper significance

 nina

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