The Beginning
(looking back) It's been almost a year since an unfamiliar wind began blowing through my life. It woke me from a 40 year sleep. It left me astonished, confused and more than a little bit intrigued. If you listen to me recount it I will say that I just "woke up gay" and while that is the easiest way to explain it it isn't as simple or as tidy as that. But at quick glance I suppose it appears that way to others. I did wake up one morning with a crush on a long time friend and I remember wondering what the hell was going on. I felt silly and embarrassed and tried to push it out of my head. I would reason with myself that a woman of my age, married twice with 4 kids could not possibly be gay. I would point to all of my hetero history as proof but find myself later mentally wandering back to this woman and I would long to kiss her softly and tell her how beautiful she was. And so began my unexpected journey. It's a journey which I am told is not that uncommon yet by vi...